well...gotta get on with life...got backstab by a friend recently as well...haha..the whole wide world is forever so funny...or is it i'm the one who is difficult to get along with?perharps..maybe,and i guess eventually the answer will be a yes..

humans are some sort of ungrateful...not all,but some how just a minority...when in need of something,they come begging,sticking and bootlicking you..after that,they just go off without saying anything...aren't this kinda people ungrateful?perharps in the first place,i should not have bother about them...but somehow,i just can't bring myself to be that cruel..but to think that after you get backstab by someone,your eyes tend to be more wary of people..and you have a fear and don't dare to open yourself as what you used to be...

maybe it is forever my fault...i have failed to certain kind of people...sometimes,i do wander if i should be in the first place living in this world...i have a lot of confusions within me...i don't know what to do...i know i have my buddies i can count on...well,but they can help only to a certain extent...well well...my fault..don't wanna brood about it anymore..it often makes me upset...so,why bother?i should be a loner,so be it...well...born to be a loner....then i am..i have leave everything to my fate and destiny..even if i were to die right now,kena hit by a car,i would have no regrets...that's my fate,i cannot change it..so,so let it be...take care my friends...thankz for everything...(not a suicidal note...just incase i die anytime)

regina