is life a chore?or is life a kind of things that are controlled by us?questions regarding life is arising in my mind..my brain..have not been able to sleep peacefully at night this few days..questions unanswered pondered in my little brain..fear live in my heart...sadness and bitterness stay in my soul..i seriously am feeling umcomfortable over this..i know i should stop thinking of what had happened,and what is going on around me...but some how,questions are aroused by people..and i had to answered..and this kind of ripped open and tear the wound..the wound is bleeding again...with the hurts...but somehow rather i have been numbed by the pain..but i still do care..somehow,i wish for certain stuffs to happen..if this happen few months back..perharps i would have resorted to that..but i have decided that that would be damn stupid of me..don't really wish to update currently..but wanna thank my buddies..and friends for encouraging me and standing by me this few days...thanks alot...you guys know who you are..shuchen,peiyun,cass and kahyuen..yeah..thanks alot...take care peeps and humans out there..

regina