exams are mid way in mid way..not really good so far..sigh..

my feelings are mixed now..
i don't know what to do..
i tried to control my tears,my emotions,
but i can't..
i wasn't strong enough to deal with this.

i cried,but no one knows..
i nearly did that,but i held myself back
no one understands how it feels to be me.
for they are not me..
Lord knows what will happen to me..

im again lost..
lost in the world..the darkness the umpteen times..
im just a bad loser..
a bad girl..
some baddies living in this world..
im sorry for causing destruction in your world this 15 yrs
especially this 2 yrs..
i do not wish for this to happen..
but God decided that this was my fate
im really sorry...

okie..sorry to type out this long essay..was just trying to write out how hurt i have been..don't wanna brood over this anymore..wanna do other stuffs..take care people..God Bless...

regina