dear bloggy..
some how,i feel that i am a lousy sister..a poor caring sis,who fail to teach my younger sis..who failed to gain her respect..im feeling just damn lousy..

was told to fetch her from school today at 5pm in the evening..and i willingly agreed not forgetting what she did to me 1 mth back...waited for her at the school gate at around 450pm..thought that she would be released on time,i sat down and wait..she came out only at 530pm..and when she came out..she didn't even bother to greet me,and walked off on her on..and she ignored me and continued to walk at such a fast pace..i was still walking behind..and she did not bother to wait..some kinda sis she is..i forsake my sleep just to fetch her,and this was the kind of attitude i received..do you think i feel good?no matter what she did to me..i tried to forgive and forget..cause blood is thicker than water..but time and again,she stabbed my heart with the actions she did..stabbed my heart with the comments she said..she said that i never treated her as my sister..and if i really didn't,would i forsake my sleep time just to fetch her?i was damn tired..and this was what i got back in return..i can't cry infront of my family..i can't..and i am really tired of keeping this..as her elder sis,5 years older than her..this is what i got back from her?maybe..it is me..who failed to gain her respect..i really tried my best to save our strained sistership..and i am real tired of this...perharps i should forget her as my younger sis..maybe..but i don't wish to disappoint my parents..my heart no longer feels now..i feel damn useless..i failed to teach my sis correctly..im damn poor..

sorry bloggy..i just wanna vent out whatever i feel now...i don't wanna bottle this anymore..sorry to vent it out here..guess i shall stop..wanna do some things first..

regina