chaos at home these three days..that explains part of the reason of the lack of updates..perharps my younger sis is undergoing through the period of childishness and inmature times like i did 3yrs back..she seems a total changed person..i as her sis can't believe she is my sister..

these three days..alot of problems have been caused by her..and i wanted to try and spend time talking to her and counsel her..but she could not be bothered..though i have already let go of what she had done to me that day..i doubt if she have ever regarded me as her sis...perharps yes..perharps no..but i guess it is no...

since young..perharps it is due to jealousy or maybe parents don't really seems to care bout me...i seemed to be jealous of their care toward my sis..it is often said that daddy would care more and love more for the eldest child..and mummy would care more and love more for the youngest..and i guess it is true..cause it does happen in my family..and maybe cause i am the middle child..i often don't feel their care and love as much as my 2 other sis..maybe my mum have spoilt my younger sis too much..that now she is demanding for more and more things..got her a game boy advance recently..and 1 month later she demanded for a mobile phone..and she is demanding more and more freedom..

i know this is part and parcel of growing up..cause i have been through it..and i don't really blame her for this..but she had seen a real life scenario where her own sister have regretted what she has done..and my younger sis said before that she would never follow my footsteps..but now...seems like she is following my footsteps..i really don't wish to see her becoming a bad girl..a naughty girl like me...cause i don't want her to regret...i have been naughty..i have been bad..i have done alot of things when i was in Primary 5 and 6..and i have hurt my parent's heart..my mum cried many times in my presence..and i don't wanna see my sis breaking my mum's or dad's heart like i did..

these days because of my sis..often i am being dragged into the whole picture and topic..it seems to have affect me..though i don't wish for it to happen..perharps i really have failed to be a good role model to my sis..maybe i wasn't qualified to be her sis..her leader..but there is nothing much i can do..

enough of all this..mid week..gonna get back to fri again..good thing is i can skip cca..bad thing is have classes till 230pm..plus plus..i guess..sigh..holidays ain't holidays at all!!!but no choice..cause we are students...take care people!God Bless..

regina