feelings come and go...
right now..
i feel disappointed..
disappointed with someone close to my heart..
disappointed by the words she used..
disappointed by the way she spoke..
i was hurt by her..

though this ain't the first time it happens..
but it still hurt to hear ur loved one saying this..
can't she spare a thought for me?
can't she care about about how i feel?
i just feel insecure whenever i hear what she got to say..


i tried my best..
i tried to change my attitude..
i tried to be a good girl..
i tried to change my way to suit everyone..
but why is it that there isn't of any use?
why why why?
im tired of this..i can't be the true me..
i have to change to suit other..
is this the way in society?
is it?
maybe..
since it is..i don't see a point of living then..
i wanna be the true me..
but i just can't...
dun wanna be like this..
just wanna be me...



im just pretty upset now..perharps it is due to some stress that i am facing now that causes this to happen..maybe..i don't know..cause have been rather stressed up this days..need to rush out alot of things..like memorising steps for my competition..some other work..im just so damn stressed..but i have been rather cheerful..but i ain't quite happy with what is going on around me..just sucks so much...life is such a chore..but too bad..born to live it...take care humans...(missing my pasts...my sweet memories...but they have already passed..time to move on..)


regina