having got much chance to update these days..basically it just boil down to few reasons..im tied down with my cca and studies..and i really have no time to update....

These days..quite alot of things happened in my life...much are unhappy stuffs..not really happy things for me..i just feel so helpless..,confused..and at a loss..i don't know what shall i do....My heart is heavy...heavy with thoughts..and i have been rather autistic in school these days..i cannot be the real me at my own house..cause my parents dont' like to see me with an attitude..and in school..i did tried to smile..and laugh..yeah..but still im trying very hard....

life have been pretty much tough for me...my competition date have been brought forward for i think by a month..which means next month will be an important month for me..and my traning sucks...i keep injuring my hand..my finger is swollen and it's blueblack..and my wrist decided to give up on me yesterday during traning..and i had to bear with the pain...freak!

some times i think that im stupid..soft hearted..and idiotic...and then i cannot express my feelings out properly....well..sort of broke down in school today..arrgh!!!freaking fish....guessi shall stop here..take care...

regina