Sometimes,life isn't as peaceful as what people describes..it's ain't beautiful as what they say...somehow,i felt cheated..i felt stupid..and i just feel as if a part of me is tearing from my body..my soul...its a kind of pain which i cannot describe...im not kidding,nor am i exaggerating..its a pain which comes near my heart..this is quite unusual..

My life seems to be pathetic...the little container inside my body...looks like its gonna break soon...im still trying to maintain a cheerful deposition though..quite a number of stuffs happened lately...just take today for example...i was such a fool..such an idiot..i was used by a friend of mine..who have been with me for years..im always treated like her punching bag..and i always have to suffer her blows when she ain't happy...my feelings ain't considered by her..it sometimes just irks me so much so that i just wanna blurt everything..but then i don't wanna hurt her..i don't wanna hurt any of my friends..and i guess this is my stupidity...can i change in some ways?i don't think so...

Today is just Monday..the start of a brand new week..yet i am already feeling lethargic..i mean,i feel lethargic everyday..its like im left with 5-4 hours of sleep..and my curriculum time in school is like around 12 hours..or nearly 12 hours...and i have tests either everyday..or every other day..the life of a sec4 students is so hectic!!!or rather i should say i have very poor time management...24 hrs a day is just so not enough for me!!!

Think i shan't complain any further..this entry is getting more and more fustrating..getting more and more boring...so stopping here then..*sec4s are zombies*...my lastest thinking..or rather my "philosophy"....cherios people!


regina