pardon me for my entry earlier on..just a platform for me to vent out my fustration i have bottle up and kept in me for a long time...my apologies....so next just enjoy some pictures i took with my sons and daughter!haha

my whole life is in a big mess...i wanna give up soon...really..i really no longer no what to do...don't wanna go through the process and ordeal of pressurising again...i already gone through too many times..and i really don't wanna go through it anymore..

Why must my mum keeps forcing me to study?people are so contradicitng...first she saw my results..she didn't say much..now she keeps forcing me to study..im just a girl..15 yr old girl..who just wish to breathe a little..everything ain't in my way now..im struggling with alot of stuffs..i fight back tears..i fight back my spirit..i refuse to let myself get down..

All i want now is abit more time to spend with myself..is this too difficult?its holidays..and im force to do things i do always..its not that im unwilling,but i have been struggling for the past 10weeks..and now i just wish to have abit more resting time...

The activities held on Sunday isn't really what i wished for..but still i have to do it...will i gain anything good from it?no!why can't you just be in my shoes and experience what im going through?everything is no longer the same...when i wanna talk to you guys..you guys is either too busy or tied down with something..when im bothered,no one knows..cept for the fact that i battle it alone...i do need advices too..and the fact that i love you guys..that makes it why i don't wanna share with you guys..cause of the workloads..but i just know that if this problem isn't gonna be solve,my happiness wouldn't be real..i would need to put up a cheerfu brave front infront of everyone...

i just don't wish to carry on with this anymore......


regina