Failed my overall exams...cause of the failure of my double maths and physic..thus i failed overall..sigh..i did study..i did my best..i mugged..i consulted teachers,friends even my sis.yet i still failed...i such a disappointment..

I admit..im just stupid...plain stupid...foolishly stupid..i know im not capable of colorful results..i know..but yet...ah well..mum did not scold me this time round...but she put it in another form of manner..and now i am feeling very much guilty about it..what's more,Chinese Os is in 6 days time..how am i suppose to improve on my chinese?arrgh!

I have been trying very hard..to be frank..it takes me lotsa courage to go through a period..be it an exam period or a competition period..it is never easy for me..after what had happened 4 years back..it lives a scar on me...but i told myself to hold on..and battle till the end..yet now..its devastating results...and im still trying to portrait an image where im not afraid of that..but in actual fact im damn afraid...i doubt anyone has seen me truly really afraid..well..well..

I have let music taken control of me once more..i will sink with the tempo of the music if it is too depressing..and i will sort of get high if that song is fast..im getting weirder and weirder each day..have been staying up this days to revise on chinese..and i have been real exhausted...my eyelid is just so damn heavy..and it seems like i might just fall asleep at any moment..not really in a nice mood..wanna be alone for awhile..arrgh..guess i shall do my favourite stuff later...take care people...

Regina