my heart was overwhelmed with pain..
its a pain that no words can describe..
must things turn out like this everytime?
before any major papers,must u step in and disrupt me?
why?am i so different?
im just like any other people...but why must is be like this always?
i really don't know..

My morning started out real bad today...had a row this morning...and i walked out of the house in a fit of anger..i know i shouldn't have done that..had another row in the car after school...2 days more before i am going to take my first O level Chinese paper...why must i be distracted by this?I wasn't the one who started this..yet im the one suffering this..come on..you suggested this as well..why is it that i got the full blame?its so damn fustrating...must you always use such harsh words?imagine hearing this..:"you don't have a mother...just go and die..."..."i don't have a daughter like you.."

I really am at a loss..i know my attitude sucks..but if you have used the correct method..i would have been nice..is it wrong to read the article which i have been always worried about?

Another thing was this morning i read the papers..and realise that the person who actually inspired me alot..and whom i have admired her for her strong courage had passed away...Joan lost the battle to tongue cancer...was really upset to see and hear this..she really taught me alot of things..but at least she no longer has to suffer...as she prepares for a new begining for herself in heaven..

My heart is really filled with mixed emotions..don't wish to update anymore...take care people...

Regina