Apologise for the lack of updates...have not been in a really nice mood..family went to HK yesterday..be back only this Sat..im alone..my siblings ain't with me...im quiet..im not in a very nice mood...partly was because of this..and the other reason is..i don't wish to say out..

But i have been wondering..am i really like that?i did my part...i tried my best...im just so tired now..im trying to move on..move out from my dark spot..i am..i need time..i realise that im facing a problem once every two weeks..but then,i realise that im able to hide out my emotions now..not that its a good thing,it is definitely not a bad thing too..

Im feeling so sian..so insecure now..alone in my room..alone in my world..though i like it sometimes..i dislike it so much now..i have practically no one to talk to except my grandma..gave up my 2 mornings to the school..went for the debate preparations..and the debate thing this morning..and now,im here blogging alone..sitting alone in this room of mine..and watching soccer later on...i have the urge to cry..im just so..perharps my thoughts have been running too wild...before i closed my eyes,i thought about it...i promised myself i won't think bout it..i promised myself not to cry over the slightest thing..and i will hold back and fight back my tears..whatever is it,i know that i have done my best..since that's the case,perharps its time that i forget this..im sorry to say that,but what's the point of me trying to give in all the time when you just back away..away and away?perharps its my mistake..but i have done what i should have..i can't force myself to do things that people like..and that i don't like it..though i did it at times..im just bearing it..i dont' wish to become a person i don't myself in times to come..i really don't wish to..

Im so sick and tired now..i really just wanna enjoy the last few days of my holidays well..and my determination is still there..i will not fall..i will brace up..i will be brave..and move on..as the saying goes,when a door closes,another opens..so i shall prepare myself to open up my next door...i will..

Regina