fear overwhelmed me,
thoughts flashed through my mind
death,happiness,sadness
means nothing to me now

heart splintered into million little pieces
my heart bled.
i don't know what lies infront of me
neither do i know how long i can hang on.

im sorry i couldn't be the girl you wanted me to be
im sorry i couldn't fulfil your wish
im sorry im always the one who causese trouble
im sorry i couldn't bring any happiness

forgive me for being a coward
forgive me for not being your ideal girl
forgive me forgive me forgive me

i just wish to be composed
i just wish to closed my eyes
i don't wish to be a burden
i really don't...

facing cold war now..broke down again..dad's ignoring me..everyone in my family..im standing alone..i don't wish to be back into the days 5 yrs back..really..im afraid..i don't wish to struggle in all this..i just wanna be who i am...

regina