i guess im a easily touched person and also very emotional..my tear glands have been rather active these days..perharps its due to the stress level exerted from the ups..

i was moved to tears..when i was reading the last few pages of my friend leonard.It didn't cross my mind that i would actually cry.Simply because the the whole things was so sad...i shall give a short summary of the story.

continued from a million little pieces..James met Leonard in the rehabilation centre because James was a drug addict at a young age.He consume drugs,drink,smoke and broke laws.One day,Leonard left the rehabilation centre earlier than James,and he left James a card with 5 different names and contact numbers, and told him that one day if he ever needed help,he could call on him anytime.

James met a girl named Lily,and fell for her.Lily also left the rehab centre earlier than James,and they communicate via phone calls.On the night before James was to be released from the rehab centre,he received a call from Lily that her grandmother's had passed away.Worried,James comforted her and assured her that he will be there for her the very next morning.

However,the next day when he drove up to Lily's house,he received a shocking news.Lily hung herself the very morning.Devastated and torn apart,James bought a bottle of alcohol,but he refrained from drinking,telling himself that he will only drink it if he really can't take it.He broke down and cried.He blamed and hated Lily for not waiting for him.James called Leonard,and Leonard was there to pull him up.Leonard treated James as though he was his son,and brought him to classy areas.James appreciated Leonard's concern,and under Leonard's care,he soon braced himself up and moved on with life.

As the story goes,James met other girls in his life,but he couldn't forget Lily.He reared two dogs,but in the end had to put one of them to sleep as the dog was aggressive and he had no other choices.One faithful day,Leonard told James that he will have to go to a far away place,where he might not be able to contact him.Worried,James ask Leonard what was happening,but Leonard brushes the topic off and insisted that nothing happened.

after about 18 months,James had thought Leonard was dead as there wasn't any news about him.But one day,he received a post card taken from some where in San Fransico.James drove up to the place and was greeted by someone unfamilar.He went into the house and saw the once cheerful and bubbly Leonard reduced to skins and bones.

Leonard had actually suffered from AIDS,and was dying soon.He confessed to James that he was a gay,but he slept around with womens.Leonard had sores over his body,and was no longer as active as usual.James was upset of course.He spent the next few days with Leonard,and shared with him sweet memories like though they are father and son.(Leonard addresses James as son.)

One morning,Leonard told James that he wanted to commit suicide,and that he has a bottle of sleeping pills with him.He would swallow the whole bottle and then leave the world as he is suffering in pain,and wish to go on peacefully.James held on,and begged Leonard not to take his own life,but Leonard was determined.He told James to go for a stroll,and by then when he returned,Leonard would have already passed on.James cried,and unwillingly left the house.He went into his lorry and cried his heart out.

The remaining part was James together with Leonard's former helper,snapper spreading his ashes on the grass patch of the golf course which Leonard had always wanted to play on.

While reading the part where Leonard got AIDS,i was stumped.My heart seemd to be pricked several times,because really,all along reading,i did not suspect a single thing.i was touched..and my tears just rolled down.Because i could feel how James felt when someone so close to your heart tried to take his own life.(this was a true story.)

While typing this entry,my tears flowed again,because really,this is a commendable book,and i couldn't stop reading.But the story taught me alot of things.Be positive always and have self discipline and control.Also,treasure your friends around you always.

I seriously recommend all to read this book,because really....its a good book.Another book to make me cry.I have been too emotional.Crying over the slightest thing.But..well..i don't know how to explain.

Prelims are coming.Guess i won't be updating that much.Take care people.

Regina