I've yet to come to any decision. Meanwhile, im taking a break from studies.

Im super proud of my younger sis. Her PSLE aggregate is 240.=)

As much as im proud of her, im feeling super inferior.

I doubt you people reading this would be thinking if we're blood related. How can one be smart, while the other is so hopelessly stupid.

My aggregate was only 198.

I remembered how i've disappointed m.c with the set of results. But im glad it was a turning point for me.

I told my younger sister the other day that she's very lucky. She's got two sister with very different experiences in studies. I told her to work hard, lest she ends up like me. I told her that im a classic example in almost everything. I've been through various failures in studies. From my PSLE, to my sec3-4 life to now, my J1. My elder sister on the other hand is super hardworking. PSLE, O lvl, A lvl seems to be a piece of cake for her. Now she's managing her last year in marketing and finance in SMU.

Now you know why im feeling inferior?

My elder sis is so successful.(well at least for now.)
My younger sis aspires to be a banker.

ME?

wondering aimlessly. Though i've dreamt of opening up my own business.

Im very different from both my sisters.

Since young, i've always thought of migrating to either US or Australia. I was told by someone i wasn't cut out for Singapore's education.

Since young, i've always been the kid who's living in her own world, only active in sports and music. I remembered how i detested chinese language, because my teacher hit me with a metre rule just because i failed to score full marks for chinese spelling. From that day onwards, i began detesting chinese.

My dad always wonder if im an asian. He always says that my thinking is westernised, and on and on. He couldn't understand why i don't like to eat rice, but only potatoes. But well, i guess now he knows.

Come to think of it. I guess i lead a very interesting life. When my sisters and i were having girls' talk the other night, i told them. I guess out of the 3, i've experienced the most obstacles in the course of the academic path. I've experienced the most cannings, beatings and scoldings. But from this, i guess i somehow benefitted. I guess i've matured along the way. (duh.who don't?)

As i grow up, i realised i've been retreating to my own world at home. Im spending lesser time at home. Spending lesser time with my family. My world seemed to revolve round work, friends, studies and music. I guess i've broken my parents' heart too much. But im thankful that now they're supporting me in my decision.

Enough of all this. It's been a pretty long post. IM SICK!

EEYER!

im going shopping tomorrow!

I need to get well soon!

I don't know why, but im super duper moody now.


off.

Regina