Im all drained out.

and a little demoralised.

But my backstage crews people were damn nice!=)

So after the whole shifts, i read through the feedback forms. And while im on my way home, i thought to myself. How have i impacted the people today?

Okays. I know you'll be thinking to youself:" what a joke! YOU?"

So i thought through. How a smile can make a difference. How the way you show your emotions matter. How the way you care about everyone whom you might or might not have seen before.

I thought i handled it quite alright today.=)

I admit, i was demoralised. i was upset with the way things was today. But i didnt show it out. Instead i displayed a smile on my face.

I treated everyone sincerely as well.(i always do okays?)

So today during debrief. I asked some of them. What are the things they've learnt? What are the things they can further improved on during their next shift.

Im glad i got positive feedbacks.=)

Enough of today.

I SWAM IN THE RAIN(drizzle lahs.) YESTERDAY!

one word: SHIOK!

AND BOTH CHERIE CHAN AND I WALKED FROM HG SWIMMING COMPLEX TO COMPASS POINT!

*beams proudly*

Its been ages since i swam in the rain. Its been ages since i hold an umbrella and walked 2 MRT stations away.

But i still feel guilty.

I know i've been impolite to my elderlys. Especially to my both my grandmothers.

I didn't meant to shout that day.

It's all my fault that i can't speak in fluent dialect. I can't speak in proper chinese. I feel difficult communicating. Plus the ulcers in my mouth.and my throat hurts. It gets irritating to talk so much.(excuses?)

I can't imagine the day if i were to lose them. What would happen to me?

What would i do?

I don't dare to imagine that.

and i don't wish to.
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meeting tomorrow. let's hope it'll be a short one.=)

Regina