I remembered crying myself to sleep this morning.

I remembered i was awaken by shouts just an hour after i slept.

6th Jan.

Daddy left for his business trip. But he left with a very sad expression. He left feeling hurt. He left feeling very very sad.

I kissed him on the cheeks and went to the toilet. Sis told me he even hugged and kissed Mummy. But Mummy was unfeeling. All she said to him was Bye. And she went on to do her stuffs.

I didn't scream at her. I didn't shout at her. All i did was get onto my bed and tears started flowing down.

An hour later, I heard Mummy screaming over the phone. Her voice cracked. She was crying as she's on the phone with Daddy.

I woke my sisters up. But we didn't want to go out. We didn't want to get into any trouble with her. I don't know when have i became like this. In the past i'll run up to my mum, asked her waht happened. But this time round. I didn't. I stood by Daddy's side. All of us felt it was Mummy's fault. Mummy's mistakes. But i felt bad. I felt unfilial.

Daddy told us he's very upset. He didn't had a good night yesterday. He was totally hurt by Mummy's pricking words. We only said. Ignore Mummy.

Mummy pretended nothing happened. She smiled and talk to us. But our replies were only single answer. I couldn't believe i could actually do this. If Daddy were to see this. He'll be very disappointed with us.

But to us, we're just trying to help Daddy. Im very tired. I fought back my emotions. I let them out when im alone.

I understand that couples do quarrel. But why can't Mummy give Daddy some peace since he's leaving today for about 3 weeks to China?

Will this 3 weeks separation do them good?

If Mummy would just change.

But it's all to late.

Daddy's already on the plane to China.


Bye Daddy. I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.

God Bless You.