6 days of 2011 have passed. Previous years i would have done a clear summary of those major incidents/events in the year and post my resolutions. But for year 2010, i haven't got the chance to talk about, and 2011 has already arrived!

I looked through my archives and saw some entries which i guess left a pretty deep impact in the past 20 years of life.


-Release Of A Level Results

This was one of the event that changed my life totally. One event that i think i'll have enough stories to tell to my little kids in time to come.

The results wasn't what i expected. In fact, it was way worst than what i've expected. I clearly remembered how i saw my grades and points. I was at a loss. Rude shock. I saw the disappointment in some friends and teachers. I just wanted to be alone. I wanted to cry badly, scream and yell, but i could not. I was still surrounded by my friends, the ballers. Deb and hy saw how that stream of tears came down for just a while, before we left for the court. Hung around the court, sms-ed those that i needed to, and i walked home with Deb. I plugged in to my music and headed home with some kind of indescribable feelings. I held whatever feelings i had to all the way, till the whole family went to bed. My dream of entering NUS FASS was dashed.

I felt bitter and couldn't stop crying. I thought of all the possibilities of what could have happened. I didn't know what i could do. My friends did very well, but i was a total crap. The whole weekend was hell, cause i didn't want my family and friends to worry, so i had to look as though i was okay, but deep inside, i was hoping night would come quick.

But of course, it didn't last for long. Or rather, i couldn't wallow in this self-pity moment for long. I started talking to friends again, went ecp to run/blade, went back to talk to those teachers i looked upon.

I had a tough time deciding what i really wanted to do next cause i had restrictions here and there, but still, March passed by very fast.

-Driving license

Gotten my license on May 20th. and it was one of the happiest moment i had.

-Big Change In Nic
Somewhere in June, i met Nic for lunch come movie. It was the second time in the year i saw him. First being CNY, where he came over to my place. That day itself allowed me to see a different Nic.

NS really changed him a lot. From someone whom i can't talk to for more than 20 mins over PW, to someone i could talk to on the phone/msn/sms, and relied on when i was really in trouble. On the last day of SIM-RMIT's orientation camp, he even drove me to compass for lunch before sending me home. This was something i really didn't expect of him. But seriously, Nic really became a BFF in 2010! Now, we will often look back into our J1 days, where we will have arguments and i'll ignore him for as long as the new PW meeting.

- Orientation Camp For SIM-RMIT.
This camp also meant a new beginning for me. After the release of A's, i went on to enrol in SIM-RMIT'S BBM. So this camp was like probably the last i'll ever have in my life as a student. Through this camp, i got to make a bunch of friends, who are just as GUNGHO as the name of my group. I formed a 7 elements with Jess,Lao da, XMM, Bevan, Allen, Mandy and Sal. We're always out for lunch together, have fun doing projs/assignments and also chiong-ed SEM 1 together.

Through Allen, we got to know the others like Jay and his group of friends. School was fun with this bunch of friends!

-Daddy's Out-stationed experience in China.
Daddy was away in China since June, and i was given a greater responsibility to care for the family. It was not an easy task, because Mummy had to undergo an op during the first week where i started my uni classes. Had to take care of her, clean up the house, give tuition and of course, study. It was a tough adjustment period because I really felt the pressure of having to care for every single thing at home. Mummy had frequent moodswing following her discharge, and the pressure added up. Twitter then became my best friend as i posted my inner feelings as and when i felt the need to.

Because daddy wasn't in SG, i had the chance to explore SG with the car easily. Of course, bringing my family out soon became my job as well. But all in all, i guess, it gave me a chance to be even more independent and be more responsible. Without my friends' encouragement, i wouldn't have kept going on.

- Last bit of every thing
I went back church starting late August, and at first it felt weird, but then, i felt the need to re-connect with God.

The last 3 months of 2010 wasn't exactly smooth-sailing. There were some problems at home and stuffs. It was a struggle. I had to again control my emotions, cause my students are innocent, and so are my friends. I admit being touchy/grouchy at certain point in time, but it was all because of stress. I flared up pretty frequently and went into this emo-period via twitter.

Thankfully, running told away certain stress away, but i guessed i ran too much, and hence, i pulled my ligament 2 days before the marathon, and had to endure pain while running.

ALL IN ALL, 2010 was a major roller coaster ride for myself. I guess i got better at handling emotions while being with others, i learnt a lot of things from all the different friends that i have.

There are bound to be regrets. But i'm slowly trying to not make the same mistakes again.

And to conclude, there are many people im really thankful for.

-kxy, dee and val are my fav girls from the Arts classes. Though im from Sci, but i felt i could connect with them. I am really glad to have met you 3 MONSTERS=) my running partners in college, my studying partners during exams period, and for being just there quietly.

-my baobei, aka VIVIAN TAN! i guess you could see the effort i made in 2010 by attempting to go for meet-ups/dinners and my friendship with you for 11 years have went through a lot. 2010 was a year i felt we got back our vvv close friendship like we had in P6! you know im always here for you, and i always love you as my little sister!=)

-Nic, my BFF! for always being mr nice, reminding me to sleep and rest whenever he sees me up online in the early morning. Im looking forward to your ORD date, so we can prolly head out for a tour and also meet up more often!

-the 7 elements, for each of you are so much fun to be with. Lectures are fun, esp stats cos of our nonsense. Lunch are always good cause we get to go out and eat nice food. Hanging out with everyone of you is what i look forward to before and after class!=)

-the very awesome teachers in SR, for all those guidance and advices, for always believing that no matter what path i take, i'll end up doing well. The trust and encouragement received are like motivation booster to someone like me.

I guess 2011 will be good. Or at least, i'll make it as good as it could be. I have yet to set my NYRs, but im living by the belief we should all live happy as we all live just once. Cliche as it may sound, but the choice to be happy lies within yourself. Friends can only do this much, the rest is dependent on yourself.

So, i believe i can do this!=)

GO CPF, GO HAVE A GOOD 2011!

for those who read this super long entry, i wish you all an awesome 2011 ahead=)